Blank sheets of paper

got a lot of worries, mainly health matters and now financially fucked for a lonngggg time. but i still have it in me to write this


i dont know whether im going to write or draw when the time comes, or maybe dance (but definetly act, ohhhhhhhh defffffinetly), but it might be just one or 2 or maybe all 3 and 4. The stakes are very high and it this point it all has to do with the performance. Is the lighting okay? Is the volume too high or maybe too low? There will be no lying or any of that but the truth will be embellished, it has to, otherwise it will be boring and unglamourus.

but this isnt a play or a painting or a story (i guess in an abstract way it can be all of these though). its 'performance art'. but it wont be seen anywhere in particular, there will not be a set time or date because its been ongoing. you're all in the play and have no idea. im sure im in some plays too but i know this. but unlike most people, i have some of my lines memorized, and i believe them. people say actors are phonies. but everyone is an actor, the difference is that phonies are bad actors who dont have their lines memorized and dont believe theyre own words. And if they cant believe themselves, can we believe them? There is a difference between acting and straight up deception.



"...the roles into which we have been cast for the moment in this greatest drama of all, the comic-tragedy of life itself in which we are simultaneously both co-authors and actors. As a good actor gives his best to his part, we too should play ours as close to perfection as possible"